Xiaoyi Wang

Writer / Future Therapist, Los Altos

I've loved reading and writing since childhood, but life’s twists led me down a path in STEM. In university, I found myself drawn to literature and philosophy, two fields that truly fascinated me. Although I recognized this passion, I lacked the courage to fully commit to writing. It felt safer to stay away from potential failure.

When I reached my thirties, I found myself rebuilding my life in a foreign land. A decade passed as I focused on establishing my career, family, and raising children. But throughout this period, I kept searching for what defined me beyond motherhood and domestic responsibilities. My efforts led nowhere until a year ago, when the truth I had been avoiding finally emerged.

While working full-time, I enrolled in a master's program in counseling psychology and began pursuing writing seriously. This journey has brought both the joy of creation and the challenge of confronting self-doubt and the need for external validation. I’m learning to coexist with these uncertainties and savor the act of creation, even when insecurity looms. After navigating this emotional duality, I can now say with certainty: Imperfect as it may be - and imperfection is inevitable - embracing your true passion is the best compass for a fulfilling life.

Writing has enriched my world, broadened my horizons, and profoundly deepened my understanding of others and myself. More than that, it has given me a strong sense of identity, one that remains untouched by external distractions. Writing is no longer just a passion; it’s the way I exist, the lens through which I make sense of the world.

I am fortunate to stand at the threshold of writing, free to embrace this calling. I capture both lived experiences and imagined worlds with equal honesty—exploring the full spectrum of human emotions, the paths taken and those left behind. My words mirror my heart, unadorned and unapologetic.

I am a writer. This is my truth.

我从小喜欢看书写作,但因为种种因缘际会,我学了理工科。上大学的时候,我喜欢跟学中文和学哲学的人一起玩,因为那就是我最喜欢的两个学科。这件事我一直都知道,但从来没有勇气下定决心去做一个写作者——为了避免失败,还是不要commit的好。

三十出头的时候我来到了异国他乡,从零开始的重新构建一个生活。我花了整整十年的时间,搞定身份,工作,家庭,孩子。在这期间我也一直在寻找,什么是我的热爱,在孩子和家庭以外,我的人生是关于什么。尝试了很多以后,我始终找不到答案。一年前,事情终于有了转机,我发现,这答案一直呼之欲出的摆在那儿,只是我没有勇气去承认罢了。

于是我在全职工作之外,开始就读心理咨询的硕士学位,并开始了公众号写作(我的故事详细版:硅谷十年)。在这过程中,我不断地体会到写作本身的乐趣,也一直在为了外界的反馈而焦虑,有时候也会自我怀疑。我在不断练习与这种焦虑共处,练习在这种焦虑之下也可以照常享受写作的乐趣。在体会过了这种痛苦和快乐交织的体验过后,我终于可以笃定的说,即便不完美——当然不完美,热爱的确是可以照亮一个平凡人生的最好选择。

写作丰富了我的世界,拓宽了我的眼界,也深化了我对人对己的理解,更给了我一份稳稳的不受外界侵扰的身份感。写作不只是我的热爱,更是我的存在方式。

我很幸运,我才刚开始我的写作之路,我拥有忠于热爱的自由。我写我的生活和体验,写活生生的喜怒哀乐,也写我幻想当中未能体验的人生际遇。

我字述我心,不偏不倚,不卑不亢。我是一个在路上的写作者。

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